life

Pavarotti has died. Hmm… life and death are two subjects that everybody knows about. You don’t have to be a professor with a phd to write about life or death. Hence, me writing this entry in my recently untouched web log. Anyway, my focus today will be on life. Life is too short to dance with ugly men. Life is too short for you to dwell (in dwelling 10? never mind.) on something other than what’s important to you. But it’ll be tricky if everything is important. Hmm.. then take the best 5 on the list. I attended a program organized by my students this morning involving the SPCA. There were cats on display and a few booths highlighting the cruelty on animals. Gosh the gory images of slaughtered cats and dogs are beyond your imagination. I cannot comprehend as to why people do that but maybe in their minds, the animal’s life value less than human. But again, who are you to take another life. You are not the creator. I guess that’s why in some parts of the world, capital punishment is eliminated. Poor cats and dogs.
I remembered not too long ago, a friend of mine, she used to and I think she still is one of the cats and dogs’ evangelists. She would literally walk through fire to safe a cat or dog. We need people like that more in this world. Just to balance with all the cruelty and violence.
The program went well and my friends were there as always to give me their support and encouragement. The saying that says, live your life to the fullest and make it meaningful to you won’t be complete without friends and family. They will be there when no one else would. They are not perfect and come with a renewable warranty. You need to always remind that to yourself because you are a friend too and you are not perfect.
Families too. They come with a no-return policy and they are yours forever. They are dysfunctional but they are the most priceless asset in your life.
I was talking to one of my closest friends from school just now and we were trying to match our menses dates and were disappointed when they are no where near. Actually we were planning for our girls weekend for like the last 6 months but everyone’s busy and the dates just don’t seem right. Ramadhan is coming and it’s going to be difficult for us especially. The other two are ok because they don’t fast. But the idea of getting together is good even though we seldom do get a chance to be together. Just like last week, I was all alone in Langkawi and I noticed that I talked a lot to myself. When I was walking or making decision, I voiced my thoughts out loud and it was a bit scary when I realized it was happening. When people started to look, then I snapped out of it. I was so engrossed in my thoughts that I was even laughing out loud all of a sudden. Imagine this, me walking in a duty free shop, threading the aisle of rows and rows of lollies and chocolates then I laughed out loud. If you do not know what I was thinking seconds before the burst of laughter then you’d think I am crazy but then even if you knew you’d still think I am a bit nuts. One screw somewhere in my cerebral cortex is loose I think. After that I was in Penang and they were a lot of conversations (yes, with other people) and I haven’t been back since Chinese New Year. A lot has changed in my brothers’ lives and my parents. There were a lot of stories that I wasn’t aware of. It was interesting to listen to family gossips. There were sessions of gifts exchanging as well. Dad had gone somewhere during the time I wasn’t home and had bought some ‘ole-ole’ for H and I. I was in Brisbane and I distributed mine as well. Everybody seems happy and contented with their gifts. Hannah was especially happy and when H and I wanted to do a bit of rendezvous-ing in town on Saturday morning, she refused to follow because she wanted stay with dad and sis. H and I took the opportunity to spend sometime alone. It was wonderful because we found a small stall selling ‘apom teloq’ in Pulau Tikus even though it wasn’t as good as the ones Aci makes but it was good. We bought 30 and it was gone in a split second. We consumed 10 on the way to the car. They were delicious and hot. The rest we took it home and Hannah loves it. So does the rest of the family.
After that H dropped me at The Sanctuary at the Gurney. It was for me to have my spa. Yes! Yes! Finally!! I had a 45minutes message and half an hour soaked in a Jacuzzi filled with milk mixed with rose petals. Heaven! The 45 minutes message was a revelation to me as I had never went through a full body message before. It was front and back. It was intimidating at first but when she kneaded almost every inch of my body, I can’t help but to relax and enjoy it. It’s not expensive and I am definitely going back there for another one. My body glowed after the session and I was smiling all the way to the car.
It was a great weekend. I got to talk to mom and tasted fruits from dad’s so called orchard. It was good to go back where you belong even though I was preoccupied with something that’s not that important. I let it get to me. When I was crying due to frustration, Hannah came and wipe my tears and said” Mummy, you are a big girl and big girls don’t cry. Okay mummy” I can’t help but smiled at her and gathered myself up and forgot about the whole thing. I enjoyed my weekend after that. The view from my room was magnificent (as attached). Unfortunately it wasn’t that clear because I took it with my mobile which only has a 1.3 megapixel camera.
In conclusion, I am thankful for a lovely family of my own, I am thankful of my initial family and I am thankful of good friends. I am thankful of this life that God has given me plus all the heartaches and hues and cries. Have great weekend everyone! Chao!